A Year of Big Goal Prep

I can feel my old confidence coming back recently. I've been riding more, and it feels like the more I ride the more confident I feel. 

Some years ago I discussed with my therapist about "faking it until you're making it" as a way to combat anxiety, and it wasn't until now that I feel it's working. I still feel have the physical sensation of being anxious, but I've essentially tricked my brain into believing it's excitement rather than nervousness. 

I've also been fortunate enough to have a great friend who owns an arena and multiple different horses allow me to ride her horses while mine are in various stages of training or pregnancy and unable to ride. I think riding these different horses also helps because it's like every successful ride, especially on an unfamiliar horse, reinforces my knowledge that I am a good rider. 

I know that eventually that pesky little voice embedded in my brain by years of an ex telling me I wasn't a good rider or good enough will only pop up occasionally instead of constantly. I just have to work through it and not give up. I have to tell that voice to sit down and shut up instead of it belittling me into making myself smaller. 

I have big goals, and this year I am making moves to work towards those goals. Because by 2025, I want to be doing the damn thing. 

What are your goals?

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